Lately I'm on a historical fiction kick. I was always a sucker for castles, kingdoms, and the medieval time period. Growing up I was obsessed with Ireland. I'd spend countless hours in my room or on the hill across the street dreaming up elaborate fantasy worlds with thick accents and rich histories of birthrights, valiance, and romance. So, it's no surprise that once I ran out of Dexter seasons, The Office, and HIMYM, I turned to shows of that nature. Granted they may not be the most well written or witty shows out there but there is something that can be taken from them, something that dawned on me recently and has had a profound effect on me since. It's not a new idea or revelation -- you've surely heard it before -- but it is no less groundbreaking and powerful when you come to realize it yourself. I got to thinking about the shows I've been watching and the impossible feats and obstacles that the protagonists are faced with and overcome and it hit me. The characters in these shows cannot loose, they cannot fail, against all odds they must succeed, there is no option of failure. If they fail they loose everything, including their lives for it is their destiny to achieve greatness and to fail your destiny is to fail much more than just yourself.
Never once is it said that their destiny is a sure thing, never once does it say the future is unchangeable, they still must fight for it, suffer for it, struggle and face these seemingly impossible obstacles, they must give their all, their sweat, their tears, their every hope and dream, and many times they come so close to loosing, to dying, to failing, but they never ever give up. And why? Because they have the knowledge that they were meant for this, that they have a higher calling, that failure is NOT an option. It is their destiny to be the King, to unite the land, to be the greatest sorcerer of all time. It doesn't matter what it is, what matters is that they must fulfill it, no questions asked, no if and or buts.
But what if our lives were like that? What if we were told we were destined for greatness and we actually believed it? What if failure, although always a possibility, was not an option because our destiny awaited? What would we do differently? What would change?
We are always told as children we can be whatever we want; we can change the world...but what if instead we were told we will change the world, that it is written in the histories of man, written in the stars; that we are the stuff of legends and that we must now go out there and become that person that it is said we will be? Can you imagine how differently we would act if we knew for certain or truly believed that we would achieve our dreams, that we must? So many of us want things, want to be better, want to be smarter, want to be more than we are...but what if these wants were not simply things we longed for but things imperative to fulfilling our true purpose? We would not put them off, we would not say "well I didn't get to the gym today, there's always tomorrow," no. We would wake up and say "today I must go, today I must achieve" for destiny cannot wait. That's the problem with dreams, we put them off for too long. Tomorrow becomes next week, next week becomes next month, next month becomes next year, and before we know it our dreams become things of the past, things we always wanted to do but never got around to. So why not make our dreams our destiny? It is always said we create our own destiny's so why not believe in them? Why not convince ourselves that we too are destined for greatness?
And what if we are? What if we simply didn't realize it before? What if I am destined to be one of the great artists of my time...I just haven't realized it till now? There is no room for questions in the end, there is no room for the what if, there is only the is and am.
So today I make my dream my destiny. I do not hope to be a great actor, I do not wish to be more diligent, more driven, I do not try to be motivated. My motivation is a given, there is no option to be less driven, less diligent for it is my destiny to be a great actor of my time. All those who have come before me and who have achieved greatness, they have not done it by dreaming, by hoping, they have done it because they believed that failure was not an option. They believed that they were destined for greatness and they went out there and they took what was theirs. Last week I cried. I cried because I realized the life I once had, the life I once wanted, the life that I grew up with was so far from the one that I have now, and I wanted both. I wanted to achieve that past life again but through the one I was living now...and man, looking at the big picture and seeing how far I have to reach before I have the ability or the option to combine both lives...well, it's overwhelming. But through the tears comes clarity and I have found it at last. All that motivation I've written about, all that struggling to find drive and hold onto it. All that uncertainty in myself and my choices...it's all gone. It's all different now. I must push forward because this is what I'm meant to do, this is who I'm meat to be. All it took was me realizing and believing.
I am destined for greatness, it is my destiny to be one of the greatest actors of my time, and I will achieve, I will succeed. I must.
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